How Do We Recover?

Check out some videos on Psychosis and read below for more context and tips for recovery: https://www.tiktok.com/@mah_butt_itches/video/7337707406291488042?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7293236218211583530 https://www.tiktok.com/@mah_butt_itches/video/7337713781323091243?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7293236218211583530 We're a little over 18 months into recovery from the 2nd psychotic break (I prefer to use the term shattering, but psychosis is the word everyone knows). Psychosis just has so many (mostly negative) connotations as to...

Who wrote your dictionary? Full post

Y'all haven't watched enough Jurassic Park, and it shows. What did we learn? Can man control life? Can man play god? What happens when man plays god? If we make a quick swap between dinos and viruses, I'm feeling like my weird low-key obsession with Michael Crichton and Jeff Goldblum is coming in pretty damn...

Poison Ivy

What poisoned poetry Would that I could Rip out heart and eyes to see This blood, no ink, no blood in deed The horrors of euphemism in packets In this lie we call history How can it be this misery Is what came so naturally How long can’t we hear and see No one is...

Can I write a new story?

I have said so many times that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have every right to be, but I don't wanna be. I asked myself yesterday - can I write a new story? I'm tired of writing about what I go through and how often I go through it....

Mixed Episode brought on by Sick Society (again. again.again…)

Radical acceptance is taking what you got and going with it instead of lamenting what could or should be. It is helpful as fuck; however, I think before acceptance, we really do need to feel the feelings, give them voice and space, and then move into it is what it fucking is. I don't think...

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Progressing over perfectionism & psychosis

I made a TikTok today - the coolest part was that I could edit it on my laptop. Once I'm just more used to it, I'm going to be able to do editing waaaaay faster. I learned how to do everything on my phone, so it's just getting familiar with how it all works, but...

Bit by bit

I've been writing on my Facebook again. I don't know why I operate this way, but as I said to my doctor this week - I'm finally in this beautiful state of not fighting with myself enough to truly learn from myself. She really loved that because she was reassuring me how long it takes...

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Greetings from my new-to-me laptop. I haven't been willing to write on my dying PC - too many lost/crashed posts and pages because my typing was too fast for it to handle, and I am just sick of trying to do shit on my phone when I know I can be sooo much faster on...

Spring Break(s)

Haven't had the time or energy to write, write. I did get some TikToks up here and there so you can head over there to listen to me, as well. On the heels and hells of everything, I experienced psychosis symptoms starting with my last period, which I believe I wrote about, aaaand with this...

Take a bow (and arrow) – Poetry by Yours Truly

Fuck the Oscars!

We're boycotting together tonight, right? I mean, what exactly could we celebrate? "Thanks for a temporary distraction from the crimes against humanity that the majority of you are actively supporting and benefiting from"?! That makes no sense. Below, is my TikTok where I do my best to suggest a bunch of shit you can do...