Sometimes, it's as if my heart becomes a fist that squeezes and slams around my chest. This fist gets labelled as anxiety, and then I breathe and do other things to alleviate it. It never goes away completely, it just gets a little better. That makes me think I need to do more, and I... Continue Reading →
Watts said something like there's nothing that makes your ego stronger than trying to get rid of your ego. If I remember correctly, he was explaining Lao Tzu's (or Confucius) saying how it's like beating a drum in search of a felon. For all the years I've listened to and studied all the different facets... Continue Reading →
What is up everybody? Anything new, exciting, or interesting? The day is just beginning here. The sun is peeking out over the mountains, shining directly into my eyes, making it an act of blind will to type. My cat is grandiosely showing me his asshole, like I'm supposed to give him a ribbon for world's... Continue Reading →
A cup of coffee, the sun rises in waves. The colors resplendent, and here I am. Full of things I wish I was not. Memories and yesterdays I wish I forgot. Like the house of a hoarder, with a couple less cats. Except you can't see the hoarding, it's just tucked away. All the words... Continue Reading →
I found a world that wasn’t there Tho it seemed so real to me I saw words that didn’t exist Yet I saw it with my own eyes I had a home that wasn’t mine Tho I swore it at the time I found a door that wasn’t a door More like the guillotine of... Continue Reading →
-the mind often feels like an overplayed cassette tape. A mix that’s been rewound and replayed so many times, the sides have bled through and the music has become warbled and confusing. Side A and Side B, like past and future, bleed together in a cacophony of nonsense. -how can time simultaneously be a man... Continue Reading →
-perception is just like a Snapchat filter of reality. It interpets everything and goes unquestioned. imagine how many moments of any day are colored by the lens of perception. How many thoughts or feelings are nothing more than seeing a dancing hot dog that’s not even there? -anything taken seriously can no longer be fun.... Continue Reading →
Have you watched The Social Dilemma or The Big Hack on Netflix? I did, freaked out like the rational nutjob I am and deleted instagram, snapchat, facebook, twitter. Then, I decided to get on this form of social media and write about it. It's like swapping addictions, but hey - you don't judge me, I... Continue Reading →
The hardest part about depression is realizing you’re depressed. We all use words to deceive ourselves. It’s not depression, I’m not depressed I’m just like … miserable and I don’t know why. I just know it’s my fault. I’m not depressed, I’m just really tired and cranky. I’m not depressed, I just generally don’t want... Continue Reading →
TJ is an incredible person and artist. His real name is Terence, he performs under the name Lyght / Project Lyght on Spotify, YouTube, Reverbnation, SoundCloud, etc. He’s been missing for 2 weeks. The last thing he said on Facebook was that he was sick. He hasn’t been heard from since. His roommate has filed... Continue Reading →
